| End the Silence.. |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|06:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
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| | none at the moment | ] |
THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998
Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.
~ Shel Silverstein
Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.
What will you do to end the silence?
Click here to post this on your own page or weblog |
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| Website bloackage |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|02:51 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | To the Moon and Back - Savage Garden | ] |
Ohhh geez, why are school computers with the internet so picky... I don't see why they have to block every site on the internet, I could be doing major research for a class (at school) and stumble upon a very good website for that one topic and find out that the site is blocked...Now to me it seems like all the blocking isn't needed, kids get onto porn almost all the time from my knowledge, that isn't educational...If they are going to block websites they need to nail them all down not just let some of them get by, if you ask me (which I know none of you will) the internet blocking needs to be calmed down a little bit |
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| Happiness and Sorrow |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|04:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indifferent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None | ] |
I did the impossible (well semi-impossible) I got a straight guy to fall for me, date me and everything...cept now i'm scared i'm going to lose it..I want his feelings for me to stay the same and I don't want him to change...It's very depressing once you think about it...When he asked me out it felt so right..I even cried because it made me so happy..and during the entire time I was at his house, he said it felt so right to be holding me, kissing me and the like...that's what i'm scared about losing I just wish I thought about that earlier when we had this dramatic conversation about it...*sigh* oh well i'm keeping him as long as I can because frankly he's the perfect guy for me...everything about him is wonderful and he treats me well...I honestly believe I love him or else I wouldn't be the scared about losing him...Okay well I have to end this I have some stuff to do... |
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| Mmm stupid people suck |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|12:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none - I love Lucy in the b/g | ] |
Okay Sij and myself have both read this stupid post about our "radical homosexual agenda" *snorts* The lady who wrote it looks like an uber dyke anyway and she shouldn't be talking...Anyway just wanted to post the link to anybody who would like to read what she wrote and the like *adds*
http://www.livejournal.com/users/maydayflower/715.html?view=1483
Enjoy ^_^ |
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| Oh yeah I still got it ^_~ |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|10:06 am] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Candee Jay - If I were you | ] |
i've been in a rather good mood lately, I lost 2 friends and an annoying carry-on (namely Travis) so i've decided to just be happier more often, I got my friends back that were getting annoyed and everything is going good, I went to the mall yesterday with my friends to find Jenny's prom dress and to shop, and WHOOO guys still checked me out!!! ohhh it felt nice I didn't feel ugly after that and well yeah that's all ^_^ |
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| annoyance... |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|12:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none again | ] |
Yeah okay I have nothing else to do in this class so i'm just going to post a random update...back to the Amber thing though..it just doesn't make sense. why NOW after the play was over?? something that happend before the play and after the play did something to make her not want to be my friend anymore...I wish it would all just go away...this school sucks, this life sucks and I'm tired of being talked about behind my back by the stupid freaks that have nothing better to do...THAT'S why I bitched 'too much' because if I don't i'll go insane about how SHITTY this world is |
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| insane depression |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|12:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
yeah I found out why my best friend Amber hasn't talked to me since the play, apparently she has grown insanely tired of my 'bitching and everything being about me' Which really doesn't even make sense... the whole thing sounds like utter bullshit and it's not even a factor, it really sounds like something Travis would say, because he actually told me the same thing...almost I mean sure I bitch but I have a lot to bitch about, my life isn't easy enough to go thru it and be silent about everything, I get harassed and bashed and I have to bitch to SOMEBODY and WTF she's not even around me enough anymore that these factors actually count...I think something else is wrong but she told Whitney this and Whitney told me, i've been wanting to cry ever since...everything about this seems unfair and unreal...i'm in 3rd period right now so I can't really write a long time...I just wish I knew everything that was going on... where the HELL did she get that everything is about ME, sure I may say "okay back to me" but that's only when i'm joking...SOmething else is playing a part in this and I intend to find out wtf it is... |
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| Morning eh |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|06:27 am] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | LMC vs U2 - Take me to the clouds above | ] |
mm my mute plan didn't work as well as I wanted, I only made it til mid 2nd period then people started talkin shit about..well me so I had to tell them off, anywho Amber still hasn't spoken to me..BUT the good thing about my mute day was getting to see Dan ^_^ ahhhh je l'adore beaucoup (probably got that wrong but oh well it's early) he really made my day, everything else was just plain crummy, *bounces and swoons* ahhh Dan Dan Dan... |
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| Blaaah |
[Apr. 6th, 2004|06:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | weird | ] |
| [ | music |
| | LMC Vs. U2 - Take me to the clouds above | ] |
Okay the in school performance was yesterday, and it wasn't that great.. I was really nervous and the audience SUCKED, none of my friends supported me (the ones NOT in drama) and bashers said stuff to me..and ever since then i've been a little out of it, it's 6:36 now and when it hits 7 and i'm at school i'm not going to say a WORD, i'm going mute for the day to see if it has any lasting impacts or creates any mysterys about myself, I never enjoyed talking much anyway *shrug* wish me luck eh? |
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| 2 down one to go |
[Apr. 4th, 2004|04:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sweetbox - real emotion | ] |
we finished our second performance earlier today, only one more to go and that's the inschool performance tomorrow, ohhh it makes me even more nervous than it does for regular performances.. I never got to go to that open audition thing v_v I figured they went without me but they didn't soo yay |
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| 30 minutes and counting..I hope |
[Apr. 3rd, 2004|11:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tori Amos - Playboy Mommy | ] |
ACTs were today, I missed the deadline so I have to wait til June to take mine, anywho me and my friends are going down to a college for open auditions to be extras for a movie they are shooting here in TN today, it takes awhile to get down there and our first play performance is tonight at 7 we need to be back by 5:30 >_> so basically it's gonna be a tight drive anywho, my mom just called and asked that in the course of a conversation with my grandmother and aunt if she could tell them I was gay -_- I really don't care anymore, they can't disown me, and my dad didn't choose too and he's the biggest biggot sometimes sooo no worries eh ^_^ |
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| Killin Time |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|05:48 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
mmm School is so boring i'm getting sick of the same thing everyday...History..oh lord I almost fell asleep about 20 times today...then I had to suffer through Chemistry >_< the class is filled with idiots who either talk about hating black people or gay people, then I get to relax in 3rd period and that's always nice, then Algebra 2...easy but annoying cause it just goes on and on and on... oh well then I get to go to Drama practice...I missed my first cue today and got yelled at >_O wasn't fun, then I came in on the wrong side of the stage but oh well i'm workin on it |
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| *yawns* |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|06:30 am] |
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| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none..it's too damn early | ] |
whooo I just woke up, god it's early >_O 6:30...I normally wake UP at this time but not today apparently *grumbles and tries to stay awake* anywho I have to go finish getting ready for school |
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| Cleaning |
[Mar. 20th, 2004|02:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sarah Mclachlan - Black and White | ] |
Ahhh Saturday, I just got done cleaning up a bit, doing the dishes and changing my clothes..I really should go outside it's really pretty but there isn't anything to do outside >_< ahhh well i'm waiting for somebody to get online so I can talk to them since I haven't in ages..anywho just wanted to post a random one...I'm feeling very..something but it's a good thing, i'm being optimistic..something's going to happen soon, and I wanna know what it is |
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| boredom suck |
[Mar. 19th, 2004|04:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
Nuuuuuu it's Friday...I only have Saturday and Sunday to write that report for History >_< and I don't think I have the ability to BS this one, everything else is fine, but I don't want spring break to end yet *whimper*...Just got done playing D2...and I realized I have a newly ripped hole in my pajama bottoms o_O not sure where it came from and I don't remember doing it at all (it's on my leg if you're wondering >_>) Anywho.. I miss my friends...I miss somebody that i'm not going to name v_v...and my friends are getting to lose their virginity before me >_< god this world is fucked up!! |
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| Shocker |
[Mar. 18th, 2004|11:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Linkin Park - Numb | ] |
It's scary that he actually wrote back o_O this is TRAVIS we are talking about here, I've given this guy so many chances, and if HE found me attractive then what's stopping the rest of the gay community...besides age and well...distance but STILL now that I trust my abilities I think I can do this *heel kick* |
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| such a fool am I |
[Mar. 18th, 2004|01:00 am] |
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| | blah | ] |
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| | none | ] |
Ugh, why do I miss talking to him...He played with my mind, he's dropped me too many times, yet I still have an urge to at least TALK to him...if you didn't guess it yet i'm talking about Travis, I just sent him an e-mail seeing how things in his life were going and everything, because i'm nice that way I like to be kept posted on recent events and the like *hint hint* so feel free to tell me stuff |
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| Home again Home again what shall I write about |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|07:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none, but downloading some! | ] |
Whooo I'm home from my small family vacation ^_^ thank god for that too, I was forced to go to Savannah, GA...close to the St. Patrick's Day parade/party (big irish community) so all the fountains were green, people were selling random irish tee-shirts and the like so I mean the trip wasn't compleately wasted eh? Anywho I managed to get me a new ring (it's damn pretty) but there weren't any cute boys down there...well gay ones anyway plus my friend told me that it's a very anti-gay community which is depressing, he told me that they were getting people to sign a petition type thingy to keep gays OUT of the smaller parts of the state o_o Doesn't that just suck?? |
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| >_> |
[Mar. 12th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | DDR- Dam Dariram | ] |
Okay yesterday and today were mid-term testing days, anywho 2 days for a chem test and an Algebra 2 test were these past two days..my 3rd period teacher..Nutrition and Food was going to give us a test today as well...over what? no clue anyway we ended up going around the room and saying what we thought about everybody >_> people either said I read too much or that i was nice or that they liked my hair..until they got to Brandon...who stood up went around the room til he got to him and said "I found out Mitchell liked boys instead of girls..I did not know that" laughter filled the classroom because...it was just so randomly funny that you couldn't help but laugh...^_^ at least he found out somethin about me, and at least it was true and wasn't something I was ashamed of I just smiled and laughed and carried on sooo yeah and my mom got her palm pilot today sooo *plays with it* |
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